Naming The Phoenix
“Words offer the means to meaning, and for those who will listen, the enunciation of truth.” – Alan Moore, V for Vendetta Language is powerful to a transgender person....
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“Words offer the means to meaning, and for those who will listen, the enunciation of truth.” – Alan Moore, V for Vendetta Language is powerful to a transgender person....
I help to run a trans education group that is home to over 40,000 members. The group is an experiment. Can calm education help us to overcome trans antagonism,...
I don’t like doing these. Not one bit. And I guess as I’m like.. literally a couple weeks away from one year since I started to medically transition like.....
Funny thing. This orange shirt has become this WEIRD water mark in terms of like “How’s my body transition coming along” and I don’t know why my brain landed...
I lived near one of the most haunted places in the United States. I moved away from the horror, or so I thought...
So there’s a comic making the rounds right now featuring a crocodile sneaking into a pond by “transitioning to a newt” so it can eat the poor creatures in...
I think when we talk about transition we often talk about our bodies and not nearly enough about our mental health. I have dysphoria, dysmorphia, and PTSD. These three...
The best photos that were ever taken of me pre-transition are from days where I almost died. There’s a resignation in my eyes in those photos — a kind...
Funny thing. This orange shirt has become this WEIRD water mark in terms of like “How’s my body transition coming along” and I don’t know why my brain landed on it this way but here we are.
I find clothing that hides my shape to be really distressing. I feel like one of the few things I have going for me in a passing way is my general midsection area from like my shoulders down so when clothing masks that my brain goes immediately into dysphoria mode and it’s super troublesome.
And so we have this weird orange shirt. It was the right size for me before I started losing weight and then it got very very very loose and it made me dysphoric. I remember I set this kind of weird watermark for myself that I wouldn’t be satisfied until it looked like I’d stolen all my old clothes from my boyfriend. For some reason this orange shirt is how I judge if that’s happening. Dysmorphia and Dysphoria are weird. I remember the first photo on the left was like.. the first time I felt like that was actually maybe achievable for me.
I’m starting to feel better about it. I sometimes wear my old hoodie that my dad got me and that feels good because I like that hoodie and I was scared it was gonna be in the donate pile as something I couldn’t wear without feeling sick. Now it can be in the comfy-day section and that makes me happy.
Anyway I’m making a measure of this as progress because I do feel like I’ve progressed, looking at these photos but if you asked me what was actually different on me I’m not sure I could say but I know I look different? I feel different? I feel happier and happier wearing this shirt, and that tells me progress is happening SOMEWHERE.
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